Based on the responses to my post, Elizabeth the Spy, I learned that a lot of you out there also like to engage in harmless spy games. For example, Helen likes to guess what people are like based on the contents of their grocery carts (“trolleys” in her country). Mogatos and her husband like to guess at life stories while they are people watching at the beach.

This morning, I took some pictures of homes around my neighborhood. Let’s play a game. Based on the photo, do you have any clues as to the personalities or life circumstances of the inhabitants? Let’s keep it light hearted, though and avoid criticizing.

I’ll start off with the first one.

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Okay, this house is owned by a very fun couple. We meet through mutual friends. They keep saying to me, “Elizabeth, you need to come to our house and help us with our garden. It’s a weed patch.” I visit and make some suggestions, none of which are taken because they are too busy with work. We become great friends anyway because they are such good company.

See? That was easy. And don’t feel like you have to insert yourself into the story. I did so in this case because I think it’s such a funny idea to put a sign in the yard to mark “dandelions” that it made me want to meet the people who live in the house.

Okay, here are some photos for you to try:

A. House in the city with three car garage.

A. House in the city with three car garage.

 

House B

House B

 

House C

House C

 

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House E

House E

 

House F. Help me figure out this house. I have been working on it for years! What doesn't show in the picture is the rest of their collection of old collectible vehicles, the boat, or the horse trailer.

House F. Help me figure out this house. I have been working on it for years! What doesn’t show in the picture is the rest of their collection of vintage vehicles, the boat, or the horse trailer.

 

 

 

 

One of the things I’ve noticed since doing regular mindfulness practice is that the plants I encounter on my walks are pulled into the foreground rather being just sort of around, like visual white noise. (Hey, if sound can have a color, sights can have a sound.)

The maple trees have leafed out in the past couple of weeks. One of them stuns me every time I see it, if I really, really look at it.

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First off, look at the overall shape. It’s so round! And although they don’t show well in the picture, there are airy spaces throughout the foliage that lighten the look of the tree and provide beautiful visual texture. And the color! Look at the contrast between the dark red and lighter red. Now look at the trunk. It has three divisions to it and they are beautifully shaped, like an up-ended tripod. Unfortunately, you can’t hear or see the rustling of the leaves. There was a light breeze when I took the picture.

This tree didn’t announce it’s splendor loudly like showy flowers do. (And I have nothing against showy flowers.) In the past, I may have just thought, “Nice tree” and kept walking. Certainly that not the end of the world, but I did enjoy the experience so much more when I took half a minute and most of my senses to “see” the tree better. I imagine that there are people, far more advanced in mindfulness meditation who could have been with that tree for a much much longer time. (And I tell you I am not yet ready to go on one of those mindfulness retreats where people go long periods of time without talking.)

If you would like to try a mindfulness exercise this week, here’s a common one. (Meaning, I did not invent it.) Go outside. You can sit or walk. Spend a few minutes noticing with all of your senses, look around, smell the air, listen to the sounds, and feel the way the ground feels beneath your feet and the air feels on your face. If you are lucky, you can also notice the way the sun feels on your face. When you are done, notice the way you feel and what you are thinking.

I am a beginner at mindfulness practices. But even as a beginner, the meditation and other mindful experiences have brought a great deal to my daily life. A street tree was revealed to be an extraordinarily beautiful living thing.

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Yesterday, on my way to the car after work, I saw a woman in the parking lot. She was perhaps in her late 50’s or early 60’s and was significantly over weight. She was facing away from me, bending over to get a bag out of her car. Since she was wearing quite a flimsy pair of stretchy white pants, I was easily able to ascertain that she was wearing thong style underwear!

Although I had to salute her for the zingy way she was living her life, I must admit that my first thought was, “Eww, is she wearing a thong?” I was also not impressed with the pants or the cellulite that could be seen through them.

Then I felt guilty. I thought, “Look, she’s parked right next to the yoga studio. She’s probably going to a class there. She’s taking good care of herself. You are so very shallow.”

Then I started thinking, “But that is really gross.”

Then I started feeling guilty again.

Then I started to feel guilty because I didn’t feel guilty enough.

Then I started thinking about aesthetics. Why are things, living and non-living, beautiful? One could argue that overweight people are not considered beautiful because being overweight is not healthy. But being overweight is considered attractive in many cultures and in the past was associated with being wealthy, not having to do manual labor, and having ample food to eat.

Now this woman was also older and youthfulness is part of our cultural ideal. Now if I imagine a younger woman, of the same size, in the same outfit, I can’t say I would have been positively impressed.

So instead of offering this woman some of my famous granny panties, or riding on this sling shot of guilt I’ve created for myself, I have one thing to say to this woman.

Namaste.”

All people are worthy of my respect and this is not contingent on something as trivial as underwear choice.

When I was a young girl, I loved the book, Harriet the Spy. The book is about a smart and very unique girl, Harriet and her past time of carrying a notebook and spying on people. I remember that she followed her nanny around and that she visited a conservatory and another place that had velvet wallpaper. The conservatory and wallpaper memories may be false but the nanny stalking was confirmed through Internet searching. In any event, just let me have my conservatory and velvet wallpaper. Harriet, spying her way through New York City was an experience far removed from my almost semi-rural upbringing with my five brothers, parents, dog, many cats, and homing pigeons.

I too, love to observe people. I’m pretty good at it, which is not bragging because as a psychologist if I did not have this skill, I would be incompetent. On my neighborhood walks, I sometimes find myself using my observations of peoples’ homes and gardens as clues about what the inhabitants might be like. It is kind of a mental puzzle that I do without really thinking about it.

There’s a house I’ve walked by probably thousands of times in the 13 years I’ve lived here. Several years ago, I noticed that the rose garden had gotten overgrown. I could tell that it had really well taken care of at some point due to the number of different varieties. The house also looked a bit in disrepair. A couple of years later, I noticed that the yard had gotten cleaned  and new plants had been added. The house got painted and updated. I figured that the house had been sold by an elderly person who had loved gardening but was no longer able to do it and then purchased by a young couple. I used to pass their lovely yard and think, “The older lady [in my mind she was female] would be so thrilled to know that someone cherished her garden and nurtured it back to it’s full beauty.”

This is the scenario I’d developed in my head and it stayed there for a few years until two days ago. Two days ago, I actually saw someone who lives in the house! And she was working in the yard! And she was an energetic woman who looked to be in her early to mid-70’s.

Okay, my new story is that she had gotten seriously ill several years ago and then she got better. Now she is enjoying her home and her garden more than ever!

The rose garden is not yet in bloom. It can be seen in the right foreground of the photo. Also, the other side of the house has prettier plants but that was where the woman was working. I took this photo from across the street. I may be a spy, but I am not a stalker.

The rose garden is not yet in bloom. It can be seen in the right foreground of the photo. Also, the other side of the house has prettier plants but that was where the woman was working. I took this photo from across the street. I may be a spy, but I am not a stalker.

 

I took this photo a few weeks ago from the same yard. I still haven't been able to identify the flowers next to the primrose. Just as well as I have no room to plant anything new in my yard.

I took this photo a few weeks ago from the same yard. I still haven’t been able to identify the flowers next to the primrose. Just as well as I have no room to plant anything new in my yard.

 

 

I have concerns about Angelina Jolie’s lifestyle and I still respect her healthcare decision.

I acknowledge the possibility that she made her announcement because she loves attention and I still respect her healthcare decision.

I have researched the problem of over-treatment of breast cancer and I still respect her healthcare decision.

I know that hospitals have money-making as well as helping people goals and I still respect her healthcare decision.

I disagree with the priorities and politics of the Komen Foundation and I still respect her healthcare decision.

I believe that the obsession with Angelina Jolie’s youth and beauty is detrimental to girls and I still respect her healthcare decision.

I am angry with Myriad Labs for patenting genes and I still respect her healthcare decision.

I could go on and on but I will end with this. I have been planning to write a post describing my decision to have a right-side rather than a bilateral mastectomy. I know the title of the post and I already have my research references lined up.

Why haven’t I written it?

I haven’t written it because I don’t want to invite feedback that is not respectful of my personal healthcare decision. And even more importantly, I do not want to unintentionally give any of the breast cancer people out there the message that I am questioning your personal healthcare decisions because mine were different than yours.

We are all people and all individuals. We can make different decisions and still respect each other. It doesn’t matter whether we are in the “pink crowd” or not.  Breast cancer prevention and treatment options are still gray. I made my treatment choices. Time will tell whether I made the right decisions but to me, they seemed the best decisions I could make based on the information that was available at the time. We are individuals, we have brains, and we have the right to make decisions that we believe are best for us.

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My re-entry to work after surgery has been busy. I am happy and doing well just adjusting to this latest transition.

 

Be back soon!

My neighborhood is so sweet smelling these days. Has it been buying potpourri?

Aha! I get it now.

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Lilacs, lilacs, every where!

Lilacs, lilacs, every where!

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The roses are starting up, too.

The roses are starting up, too.

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It snowed last night!  (Looks like a variety of spirea. By the way, Jennie, if you are reading this. I think spirea is the plant from the neighbor's back yard that pokes over our fence. I think I misidentified it.)

It snowed last night! (Looks like a variety of spirea. By the way, Jennie, if you are reading this. I think spirea is the plant from the neighbor’s back yard that pokes over our fence. I think I misidentified it.)

Enjoy a fragrant weekend!

I’ve discovered another way of getting my naturopath recommended 2 tablespoons of flax seed meal each day. It’s so simple. I can’t believe I hadn’t thought of it sooner. I combined one heaping tablespoon of peanut butter with two tablespoons of flax seed meal. I spread this mixture on two apple halves.

Although the flaxseeds change the texture of the peanut butter, it’s still pretty tasty.

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