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Okay, I exaggerate slightly. I am still having the occasional hot flash since starting acupuncture. However, I had a Lupron shot last week and usually the hot flashes get much worse right after the shot. This did not happen this time. Further, I am feeling cooler at other times of the day. Even before my breast cancer diagnosis, I was in peri-menopause. I often felt on the warm side. I feel a bit more like I used to before this hormone dropping part of my life.

I am cautiously optimistic. If the trend continues, I may never know for sure if it was a result of the acupuncture or some other reason/s. But that’s okay because a benefit of life as a tainted test tube is that I get to enjoy a positive outcome whether I understand the how’s or why’s behind it or not.

I had a great first day back at work yesterday. I’m so glad that I took off extra time to recover from this surgery. I have two more full clinic days and then I have Th and Fri as paperwork/healthcare visit days.  

That’s actually a full-time schedule, which was not the plan. The was a scheduling mishap by either a parent or myself, which I resolved by scheduling a full day of testing with a teen on Weds.

Now before you start wagging your finger at me, keep in mind that next week, I have no one scheduled! I had cancellations and did not fill in the spots. And although the schedule snafu family could have come in next week, they have already waited 4 months to see me and the mom says they’ve been ‘marking the days off on the calendar’ until their appointment, which they had thought was yesterday when I was scheduled to see someone else. Fortunately, the snafu was discovered last week. It meant a lot to the mom to only have to wait an additional two days instead of seven.  

My popularity, while good for business can be stressful. There is a shortage of specialists in my area coupled with high demand. But I love my job and after all, I got three hugs yesterday!

I’m back to work after 7 weeks off. Unlike returning to work after my last major surgery, I am better rested and in turn, more enthusiastic about my return. It’s like the first day of school!

Here’s my terribly lit self-portrait.

Darn, not only are the lighting problems obscuring my head on a particularly good hair day, but I cut off my feet. I wanted to show off my black Prada pumps that I picked up at a second hand store for $15!

Darn, not only are the lighting problems obscuring my head on a particularly good hair day, but I cut off my feet. I wanted to show off my black Prada pumps that I picked up at a second hand store for $15!

Okay, my $15 Prada pumps pulled a Gloria Swanson in Sunset Boulevard type diva move. They insisted on being added to this post. Okay, crazy shoes. I hope I captured your "good side" in the photo.

Okay, my $15 Prada pumps pulled a Gloria Swanson in Sunset Boulevard type diva move. They insisted on being added to this post. Okay, crazy shoes. I hope I captured your “good side” in the photo.

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A very heartfelt thank you to Diane of Dglassme’s Blog  for nominating me for a Very Inspiring Blog Award. It must have been that belly button scar photo I posted the other day that put me over the top! Seriously, I have followed Diane’s blog for quite some months now. She is brave, no nonsense woman with an interesting and honest perspective on her breast cancer treatment. Diane also writes joyously about what her relationships with her gorgeous Golden Retrievers add to her life.

I am writing about someone who inspires me and that is my friend, Shirley Enebrad and her son, Cory. I met Shirley through her husband Steve Geller, a fellow psychologist and friend, with whom I share an office. He is the one who is moving to Hawaii in about a month and has inspired a frenzy of furniture shopping to replace the stuff he is taking.

I’ve never met her son, Cory. He died about 20 years ago at age 9 of pediatric leukemia. Steve knew him (Cory was a child from Shirley’s first marriage) because he was working as a grief counselor conducting kids’ groups. Cory was in his group. This is also how Shirley and Steve met each other. Cory was an extraordinary boy with an extraordinary mom. Shirley wrote a quite moving book about her life with her son called, Over the Rainbow Bridge. It is an amazing and inspiring story. Cory’s life transformed the lives of those around him. I know that sounds dramatic, but it is true.

Here’s a quote from Elisabeth Kubler-Ross, M.D., the pioneering psychiatrist who wrote, On Death and Dying:

Cory was my favorite patient ever, and he taught me more than I could ever teach him. His lessons about the afterlife were profound, and his drawings of what he saw “over the Rainbow Bridge” helped thousands of people get in touch with their long-buried emotions.

I can only imagine the shattering trauma of losing a child. I know that Shirley’s heart still aches for her son, who if he had lived, would be near 30 now and perhaps have children of his own. Shirley became a tireless worker on behalf of children with cancer. Prior to her moving to Hawaii, she was the person who put together every one of the educational baskets that families of newly diagnosed cancer patients receive at Children’s Hospital in Seattle. That hospital serves a six state area. Shirley has organized fundraisers, written grief materials for children, and provided grief counseling to others. That’s just the tip of the ice berg of her service to families and children. On top of it all, Shirley and Steve have served as foster parents to a number of children over the years in addition to raising two children of their own, who are now both adults. In addition to being incredibly generous and skilled with very challenging children (with trauma histories of their own) for Shirley to take on foster children, who typically end up leaving your family, is incredibly courageous for one who has lost a child in the past.

Shirley has just published a new book, Six Word Lessons on Coping with Grief: 100 Lessons to Help You and Your Loved Ones Deal with Loss. It is downloaded onto my Kindle and I’m looking forward to reading it. She did not ask me to publicize her books on my blog. I love celebrating my friends’ accomplishments and sharing resources with people who might appreciate them.

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ResearchGate is like a Facebook for researchers. We post our research articles and get stats on how many views they get. I signed up for it at the electronic invitation of one of my former colleagues at the University of Washington. It’s my last gasp at being a researcher, really. Well, that’s an overstatement. I am still asked to be a peer reviewer for journal submissions. I am asked frequently by a quite prestigious journal. I would be pleased but I am mostly asked to review articles that are not really suited to the journal. (That’s not code word for “bad articles”, by the way. Each journal has a niche and some submitted articles do not fit that niche. They tend to be lower priority articles and perhaps even ones an editor might ask someone who has not been an active researcher since 2007 to review. Be reassured, however, that I don’t agree to be a reviewer unless I think I can do a good job.)

Another feature of ResearchGate are periodic suggestions of articles based on one’s interests. Today’s suggestion arrived in an email. “Elizabeth, we’ve hand-picked some suggestions for you.” The suggestion was “Altitude acclimatization improves submaximal cognitive performance in mice, and improves an imbalance in the cholinergic system.”

First, I am very happy for these mice. If memory serves, one of the functions of the cholinergic system is to support memory functioning. Mine has been a bit on the fuzzy side throughout the stress of cancer treatment. Not to mention the fact that altitude sickness is no fun. (What are they doing with those mice, anyway? Having them scamper through the Alps decked out in lederhosen?) Finally, while it is true that psychology is quite broad and there are psychologists who probably do work in this area. However, here are a couple of examples of my publications:

Skinner, M. L, MacKenzie, E. P., Haggerty, K. P., Hill, K. G., & Roberson, K. C. (2011). Observed parenting behavior with teens: Measurement invariance and predictive validity across race. Cultural Diversity and Ethnic Minority Psychology, 17, 252-260.
Haggerty, K.P., Skinner, M.L., MacKenzie, E.P., Harachi, T.W., & Catalano, R.F. (2007). A randomized trial of Parents Who Care: Effects on key outcomes at 24-month follow-up. Prevention Science, 8, 249-260.

MacKenzie, E. P. Improving treatment outcome for Oppositional Defiant Disorder in young children (2007). Journal of Early and Intensive Behavioral Intervention.

Haggerty, K.P., MacKenzie, E.P., Skinner, M.L., Harachi, T., & Catalano, R. (2006). Participation in Parents Who Care: Preventing youth substance abuse. Journal of Primary Prevention, 27, 47-65.

Hmm. I wonder what they will suggest next?

A little frame of reference. I had three needles placed in the cartilage of each ear today in addition to lots of other places and it did not hurt.

As I have mentioned in the past, my initial college career goal was to be an academic researcher. My particular emphasis was on conducting controlled clinical trials. And what I mean by that is doing research to evaluate a treatment by comparing it to an untreated group. This, ladies and gentlemen, is what we call an experiment! And I can say in all sincerity, “Yay, science!” And that’s what I did for my doctoral thesis and during the ten years following my obtaining my Ph.D. in 1997. My career trajectory took a different course, which I have explained in an earlier post. To make a long story short, I didn’t know how to effectively keep chasing grant money while maintaining a healthy family life. But don’t boo hoo for me because going into private practice full time ended up being the perfect job for me.

Back when I was doing science, there was a lot of effort put into designing experiments that were as highly controlled as possible. We picked measures that actually had statistical properties that demonstrated that they actually measured what they were designed to measure. And since we were trying to show that our treatments produced desired change, we had to choose measures that were sensitive enough to detect change. And if there was a variable we wanted to measure for which there were no suitable measures already available, we had to develop our own. Measure development is no joke, people. You might think good social scientists just make up a bunch of questionnaire items and then give them out to their research participants and assume all is being measured in a reliable and valid way but it just doesn’t work that way. Well, I guess one could do it this way but it would not be good science.

We also tried to “control” or account for variables  that could explain changes (or lack thereof) between the treatment and control group, other than the nifty treatment program we were testing. These little extra trouble making variables are called “confounds.” Confound it, variable, you have messed up my experiment! Sometimes these variables can be controlled for statistically but other times, they cannot. Inclusion criteria for studies are developed to screen out the latter variables. For example, when I was doing research evaluating a parenting program to support positive behavioral and emotional development in young children with behavior problems, we screened out children with Attention-Deficit/Hyperactivity Disorder because research on AD/HD shows that psychological treatment alone is not usually effective for kids with AD/HD. (I wish it were but it is not.) Young children with AD/HD often show behavioral problems but they would be unlikely to respond to treatment, unlike other youngster who did not have this additional diagnosis. So, those of you who have tried to join breast cancer trials and have been denied based on the inclusion criteria for the study, this is the reason why. The researchers are not trying to be mean. They are trying to get the clearest picture that they can about whether the treatment is helpful for its intended purpose. After a treatment has initial support and the findings are replicated, subsequent studies may shift the criteria to other groups, which may have been screened out of earlier trials. But if a researcher cannot show a positive impact in the early trials, they risk that treatment being seen as a dead end. And if the treatment looks bad, subsequent research on it will not get funded.

Okay, that’s a little about my former life as an investigator on clinical trials. As a clinician, the test tube gets a little dirtier. I am trained in using evidence-based practices and I use them. However, they do not describe every possible scenario. Often, my recommendations are based on my understanding of the principles that underlie the evidence-based treatment models that I use, rather than from a treatment manual. Also, families come in distress and I often recommend that they get a number of interventions going at once, interventions at home, at school, and with a physician. When there is improvement, from a science perspective, I don’t really know what the most critical components of the intervention were for that particular child. This is because I am not doing research on my patients. I am a clinician. I work systematically and my efforts are guided by what research is currently telling me about best practices. My work is also informed by my clinical experience. I can’t exercise the same control as I did as a scientist.

Now I am a cancer patient. My physicians, just like I do with my patients, have hit me with multiple treatments at once. To further muddy things, I have opted for an integrative approach to my treatment. In addition to my onco surgeon and my medical oncologist, I see a naturopathic oncologist and receive acupuncture from a physician trained in Chinese medicine. I also follow a special diet, take nutritional supplements, engage in mindfulness meditation, get a massage every 3 weeks, and walk 3 miles a day. My holistic treatment plan is quite variable in terms of the research evidence available to support it.

Does this mean that I threw my whole education away? I don’t think so. For one, I am mindful of the fact that there are no guarantees that my cancer won’t come back or that I won’t get sick with some other disease or that I won’t get hit by a bus tomorrow. My mindset is one of influencing rather than trying to control my outcomes. Some of my complementary or integrative practices are no-brainers. Maybe my losing nearly 40 pounds, eating healthy food, and walking 3 miles a day won’t keep cancer away. But I know that (1) I feel better now and (2) I am reducing my risk of all kinds of future health problems. Eating lots of chard and broccoli is not the same as buying snake oil. And research is still out on whether there are higher nutritional benefits for organically grown produce. I think there probably are more benefits nutritionally. But even if there is not, there are environmental sustainability benefits. So, this again, is a no brainer to me. I don’t exclusively eat organic, but I mostly eat organic. And my last example is the flaxseed meal I take every day. Maybe it will not really prevent breast cancer recurrence but it’s good fiber and Tamoxifen is a little constipating.

Some of the actions I am taking are for potential long-term benefit. I may never know if they help but they might help. (Obviously, I am omitting interventions that may cause harm unless there is evidence that the potential pros greatly outweigh the cons.) I am also not in favor of doing anything that just seems outright illogical or doesn’t have some kind of track record. I must admit that I don’t get the logic behind acupuncture but I respect that it is based on thousands of years of practice from a an amazing culture. It also has western-research validated applications, especially in pain management. Plus, I get to meditate while the needles are in and there is some research suggesting that mindfulness meditation reduces the risk of breast cancer recurrence. And even if that research doesn’t bear out, there’s ample research of the effectiveness of mindfulness meditation in stress and anxiety management. And in case you haven’t heard, having breast cancer is stressful and often causes anxiety!

But I haven’t thrown away my research training. Enter the single case study design. It’s a very simple design, often called “ABA” or “ABAB” design depending on how it’s set up. For me, the single case is me. “A” refers to baseline. “B” refers to treatment. What? Okay, it’s easier to explain with an example. As I have mentioned in the past, I have a long history of eczema going back to my early 30’s. My naturopathic oncologist suggested that it might be due to a wheat allergy and asked me to consider not eating wheat for a couple of weeks. In this case, “A” is my baseline, otherwise known as the 15 years I spent eating wheat and scratching. “B” is the time I spent off of wheat. I actually refrained from eating wheat for about three months. My skin cleared considerably. But there’s some variability in my eczema. It waxes and wanes. So the clearing could have just been part of that cycle. I decided to go back to “A” by eating a slice of pizza that one of my brother’s brought to me right after my TRAM surgery. Two days later, bam! Huge outbreak of eczema. So I promptly went back to “B”, not eating wheat and my skin improved. Usually, results are not this striking. This was a darned good use of the ABAB single case study design. I am using the AB or possibly ABA design with acupuncture. Although I am noting improvements in hot flashes and my energy level, it is hard to say whether the former is just due to the general pattern I’ve noted of improvements in hot flashes a couple of months after each Lupron shot and the latter might just be due to the natural course of my healing from my surgery. However, I got my new three month Lupron shot yesterday and another session of acupuncture today. All of these variables manipulated at once! We will see what happens.

You can try AB or ABA or ABAB designs for yourself. One trick is that it will only work for interventions for which you expect quick results.  I can’t eat Swiss chard for two weeks, stop eating it for two weeks and expect to detect any changes in my health, for example. But don’t make the same mistake a coworker made years ago. She had chronic neck pain for many years (A) and decided to try acupuncture (B). She decided to stop acupuncture (back to A) to see if it was really a “cure” because unless it was a cure, it was not real in her eyes. Her neck pain came back so she decided that acupuncture didn’t work. This is like deciding to no longer take insulin injections because your Type 1 diabetes is poorly controlled when you don’t take it. Not all effective treatments are cures but that doesn’t mean they are fake or useless. I suspect she would have viewed diabetes treatment differently and her illogical reasoning had more to do with her discomfort with eastern medicine because she was quite an intelligent person.

Finally, I found an excellent article on the Anderson Cancer Center website that describes practice guidelines for integrative care for cancer.  Check it out!

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