T minus 5 months, that is. At long last, I have scheduled my TRAM surgery date. If all goes as expected, it will be on March 11th. Yes, that’s a long time from now but it was the earliest available surgery date and I am fine with waiting. For one, I need to make some money to pay for it! This way, I’ll get to enjoy the holidays as well as my 23rd wedding anniversary on March 10th. Almost more importantly, I should be able to enjoy the summer of 2013, more so during the summer of 2012, which included three surgeries between June 27th and August 8th followed by a medical leave that lasted until September 10th. I spent the majority of that summer in and out of the hospital and then another month in recovery. I’ll need to take some time off after this next surgery, I’m thinking at least four weeks.
I had a particularly good appointment with Dr. Welk today. He asked me a bunch of questions about what it’s like for me to be a psychologist. He is usually not very chatty. Maybe he ate his Wheaties today!
I’m sure it feels good to have a surgery date!
Yes, it does. Now I know how to plan for the next few months.
March 11th is a marvelous date to have your surgery…you do need more time to adjust to all that has happened. And your body needs a chance to repair itself, restore and find your new equilibrium. Do you remember when you were pregnant and the pregnancy just took over your body and you had no say in the matter on how you felt …where was your energy going? And remember there was a positive side to being pregnant! So here you are with multiple surgeries and your body is pouring all of it’s energy into repairing and healing…sapping you of your reserve! And the mental part of having cancer is a whole ‘nother side of the equation…also sapping your energy! You have been doing your part to take care of yourself in a beautiful and informative way and still your body is telling you…”I need more time to take care of matters here!” Going into this next surgery feeling strong and healed will help your body tackle this next phase. So go find that perfect coat!
Karen, very beautifully written sentiments from a very beautiful person! Thanks so much!
Love reading your blog. You have such loving friends.
Not to mention, a very loving mom.