Lux aeterna luceat eis,
Domine, cum satis tuis
in aeternum, quia pius es.Let perpetual light shine upon them,
O Lord, in the company of your saints
forever, for you are compassionate.-From the Concluding Rites of the Missa pro Defunctis (Mass for the Dead).
Last night I went to the Mass of All Souls at the St. James Cathedral in Seattle. This year the choir, in which my mom is a member, sang Mozart’s Requiem. For those of you who are unfamiliar with this piece of music, it is the piece that Mozart is composing toward the end of the film, Amadeus. It is a powerful and beautiful mass, which was sung splendidly by the choir. The beginning of the mass definitely emphasizes the downside of death, the wrath of God, judgment, and burning in eternal fire. This is the part that also has the most exciting music. As the mass progresses, themes of life, grace, and redemption emerge. The music and lyrics become lighter, more peaceful, and let’s face it, not nearly so exciting. Mass ends with a processing of white robes, the crucifix, and candles.
St. James is a popular church and the Requiem Mass draws a large crowd of parishioners as well as lovers of sacred music from a variety of religious faiths. If you don’t arrive early, you have to stand. So I got there about an hour early. My dad, my younger brother James, and his wife, Meagan were already there. I sat next to my brother and we chatted before mass started. The church filled up but the seat to my right was empty because it was reserved for people with physical limitations. After a little bit, a woman, who was accompanied by another woman, sat down next to me. I noticed that she was bald as well as wearing some really cool black and white patent leather shoes that looked like a cross between sneakers and wing-tipped dress shoes.
Several minutes later, I saw my mom, dressed in a choir robe, walk across the church. I waved at her. The woman seated to my right asked, “Do you know her?” And this is how I met Brenda and her wife, Kristen. Brenda is being treated for breast cancer and also gets her treatment at the Swedish Cancer Institute. She was diagnosed last May and underwent a double mastectomy in June. Brenda is currently getting chemotherapy and had an infusion earlier in the day. She told me that she had just switched from Taxol and was pleased to still have some energy on this first day of the new medication. I mentioned my blog and both Brenda and Kristen expressed keen interest. It also turned out that Kristen is also a mental health provider. It just so happened that Brenda was also looking for a supportive community and not sure where to start. I described the wonderful support I have received from the breast cancer blogging community. After the mass, Brenda asked for a hug and I gladly gave her one. I told Kristen and her that they would likely be mentioned in my blog today. It was a lovely and very human encounter.
Today, I have been thinking of Brenda and Kristen, who are near the beginning of this breast cancer mess, a very scary and unfortunately exciting part of treatment. And I hope that with our connection and their potential connection with the many dear souls of this wonderful community that we will all progress further toward grace and light.
Finally, the choir really was magnificent and at the risk of being totally tacky in church, I hid my smartphone under my program and made a sound recording of a portion of the Sequence, which is the longest section of the Requiem. The choir begins after a few croaky bars sung by the congregation. Here they are, The St. James Cathedral Choir and Chamber Orchestra, directed by Dr. James Savage.

View of the altar. St. James’s original design was more traditional. The altar was moved to the center of the church several years ago.

Dad, my sister-in-law Deb, Mom, Me, my sister-in-law Meagan, and my brother James. (Mom, I know that your eyes are closed but they were in the other photos, too.)
dear Elizabeth,
this was such a heart warming post. you and your family gathering in such a lovely setting, your wonderful mom singing in the choir, and a seemingly providential encounter with Brenda and Kristen.
if I may, I would like to say hello to Brenda and Kristen, and offer a warm welcome to you both, just in case you are reading Elizabeth’s blog for the first time. the BC blogging community provides a great way to share stories, to always be able to express one’s feelings, and to have a safe place to land when feeling overwhelmed. we cry, we laugh, we support one another through all the good, the bad, the ugly, as well as celebrating life’s most wonderful triumphs – and once in a while, indulge in a good rant! Brenda, I wish you the very best as you proceed through your chemo tx with Kristen by your side to cheer you on.
much love and light,
Karen, TC
Karen, what a lovely comment and I am so pleased that you have introduced yourself to Brenda and Kristen.
As is becoming more common, you and I were on the same wavelength in our writing life today.
Wonderful post, wonderful music, wonderful church.
Bravo.
Thank you very kindly, friend.
Thank you so much for the warm welcome. This comes at just the right time, as I have been saying that my friends really don’t know how to support me, and many have disappeared. To find a community that’s established and at my finger tips is right on time for me.
You are very welcome, Brenda!
We all seem to be thinking along the same lines lately. Maybe because Thanksgiving is just around the corner. The quote I posted just the other day expressed how you could make someone feel better just by a touch or a smile or a kind word or compliment. You just never know the battles others are facing so always be kind. Thank you for sharing your experience. This is a wonderful post and the perfect example of being kind to others.
Thanks so much, Paula.
E,
You know I truly believe there are no coincidences. You were placed in Brenda’s path for a reason. You, the perfect person to empathize, encourage, guide & befriend…the one person that God knew would reach out with open arms (which is exactly what happened:) Someone who needed another who could understand her plight, was given that very thing at the perfect time. After all, God’s timing is always perfect! A tremendous need was met. I think that is just plain cool!
And I have to say, I really wish I was a member in your mom’s choir. I am so envious! 😉 They are freaking AMAZING! :))
M
That’s very sweet, Maria.
I’m speechless. Thanks you for being such a wonderful daughter & outstanding person. I believe that you were chosen to help others and that is exactly what you are doing.
I wish you could send your blog to St. James Music Office. It would be greatly appreciated.
As for the music. My computer is almost fixed but has no sound so I’ll just have to imagine the music.
Thanks so much, Mom. You all were truly inspiring. Also, if you give me a name and an email address I would be happy to send the link for this post to the church office.
I don’t know how to correct the thanks you so just ignore the s.