I wear two rings, an engagement/wedding ring, which I’ve worn since 1990 and an anniversary ring, which I’ve worn since 2005. I had the anniversary ring appraised after I had it designed. However, I have not ever had my wedding ring appraised. It has been 12 years since I had the other ring appraised. I have NEVER had them checked by a jeweler. That is something that I am supposed to do each year. Oops! Last Sunday, I dropped my rings off at a jeweler to be checked, cleaned, and appraised. I will pick them up next Sunday.

I am re-appraising many things, not just my diamond rings. Most of all, I am re-appraising my lifestyle. It’s the same that happened when I was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2012. And guess what? Having two heart attacks, out of the blue, also gives me pause and time to re-appraise my life and how I live it.

I have been coping, so far, rather well. However, I can realistically tell you that I am uncertain. I am afraid. I think these are reasonable reactions. I am working successfully to enjoy each day. I have embarked upon another voyage of ambiguity. This time, however, I may have a quite rare cardiac disease. Fortunately, I have found resources through the breast cancer blogging community, which is connected to other health care advocacy groups. Unlike my breast cancer treatment, in order to find specialists this time, I’m going to need to travel out-of-state.

I am someone who deals better with adversity if I have some past experience dealing with it. I am not grateful for having had cancer in the past, but I’ve got to tell you that I learned a lot in that experience and I am drawing on it now.

Today, it is beautiful and sunny. I’ve had a good work day, part of which included time with a kindergartener. I came home to my loving husband. For now, I will meditate on that.