Thank you, Cancer Curmudgeon for the nomination for Very Inspirational Blogs. There are rules that come with this nomination: 1) list 7 random facts about myself, 2) nominate 15 other bloggers for the award, and 3) tell the bloggers of their nomination.

I like the spirit of this positive and supportive pyramid (un)scheme so although I am not following the “law” of this, I’m going to try to make this good. So here is an annotated list of a few of the blogs I’ve found very inspiring over the years. Also, I don’t like the idea of choosing some of my fellow WordPress bloggers but not others, I am only talking about blogs outside of WordPress. I know, I am difficult but it is too difficult to choose, especially among my fellow breast cancer bloggers, all of whom I find extraordinarily inspirational.

1) Infertile Ground: On which I tread and sometimes kneel
This is a poignant and superbly written blog about a woman’s experience with fertility treatments over about a three year period. This blog, which I was so lucky to have encountered, was my first experience at seeing the power of blogs in helping people heal. This blog attracted a very devoted following of women struggling with infertility. They formed a very supportive community and it was clear from their comments that the blog was a wonderful resource for them. I no longer have this blog bookmarked because it was inactive for a very long time. But I see now that there has been at least one post this year and perhaps more to come.

2) Marta’s Memories, Etc
This is my mother’s blog, which she has kept since 2010. She and my dad’s lives are inspiring to me. They have been married for 58 years. They live is a big house in the woods where my five brothers and I grew up. My family of eight were supported financially by one salary, my dad’s as a sheet metal worker. And then there was my mom rearing six kids while staying active as a singer in church, which she has done since age six. My family did not live big. My parents set a good example of living within one’s means, being kind to others, working hard, doing things together as a family, and laughing hard. They now have a very happy and active retirement, spending lots of time in nature, in church, and with family. My mom’s blog has great old photos of her family, who started out as Italian immigrants in the greater Seattle area at the turn of the 20th century. She also posts about her life now, her garden, and their home projects. One of my favorite posts is “The wench with a winch“, which chronicles my parents’ use of a large winch to move a fallen Douglas Fir out of their yard.

3) Anti-Cancer: A New Way of Life
This is the blog for the book of the same title, written by the late David Servan-Schreiber, M.D. Ph.D. and now carried on by his colleagues. Okay, so the purpose of the blog is in large part to promote the book. And that is my intention in listing it here, as well. Dr. Servan-Schreiber became a strong force in integrative medicine for cancer care after learning that he had brain cancer as young professor of psychiatry and neuroscience. Integrative medicine is not to be confused with alternative medicine. The strategies discussed in the book, which include nutrition, exercise, reduction of environmental toxins, and mindfulness meditation were intended to be used in combination with conventional cancer treatments. The program described in the book is currently being investigated at the highly esteemed Anderson Cancer Institute in Texas. This book had a very positive impact on my approach to my own treatment, which focuses on using multiple resources to help me live a healthy life. Although the long-term impact of my daily health routines remain to be discovered, eating healthfully, walking every day, and doing mindfulness meditation has made a very positive difference in my health right now.

I know that’s not 15 blogs but I did annotate them! Oh and I almost forgot the seven random facts about me:

1) When I was 14, I wrote an advice column for kids for the Seattle Times called, “Gotta Gripe.”
2) When I was 15, my mom and I got tear-gassed in the goat barn at the Western Washington State Fair.
3) When I was 15, I fell into a man hole (a square one that had not been put back properly) up to my ankle, falling quickly to the ground. Fortunately, I was carrying a big bag on my shoulder, which swung in front of my body, keeping my face from hitting the asphalt. (This occurred during the same week as the goat barn incident.)
4) At 47 years of age, I can still sit in the lotus position and put my foot to my head, though I am the absolute worst at yoga.
5) Although I always say I don’t have a favorite color, it is really red.
6) I once seriously considered becoming a nun.
7) Today my blog reached 1000 comments. Most of them are mine!

It’s raining cats and dogs these days, which is not unusual for this time of year. What is unusual is that I’ve received some unexpected money.

You know the feeling you have after putting on a pair of pants or a jacket that you haven’t worn in awhile and finding a $20 bill in your pocket?

I’ve had that feeling twice this week. First, I received a check for $110 from my professional liability insurance company as a “legacy award” for having a policy with them for over five years. The check will be split between my two office mates and myself as we share a joint policy. I’ve never heard of a “legacy award” of this kind but now is not the time to ask questions; it is time to go to the bank!

A second check arrived for $375! It was a refund from Myriad Labs for overpayment for my genetics testing back in June. I bet John and I both sent a check to them or something.

Compared to the price of my cancer treatment, $411.67 doesn’t seem like a lot. However, it’s over two-thirds of the income I made in the entire month of September when the money had almost totally dried up due to my four weeks off from work to recover from my mastectomy. Fortunately, my income for October was much better and November was even better than October.

I hope you enjoy similar weather in your neck of the woods!

‘Cause there’s no Bandaids stuck on me!

Not surprisingly, breast cancer treatment requires bandages. Not a huge number at any one time, but it seems like there’s always a faithful bandaid or piece of gauze some where on my body from surgery, a blood draw, or a shot. Today I’m pleased to announce that I have been bandage free for three whole days! My skin, it’s intact!

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Half way between Vashon and Fauntleroy marks the beginning of my journey.

Half way between Vashon and Fauntleroy marks the beginning of my journey.

I’ve started using a new program on my smartphone to keep track of how long I walk (time and distance) each morning. Today, after about 25 minutes of walking, I looked at my phone and it said that I’d walked 3.5 miles. Hmm, I usually walk about three miles an hour and since I had not noticed that I was running really fast or roller skating down hill, I took a look at how the program, which uses GPS locating, had mapped out my route.

To my surprise, my starting point was recorded as being at the midpoint of the Vashon Island/Fauntleroy ferry route, in the middle of the Puget Sound. In fact, it looks like I jumped ship, swam north for a bit then swam east to shore at Lincoln Park. At this point I must have flown, because the route runs straight through the park and the park only has a bunch of winding trails. Or maybe I just crawled straight up the steep hill along the beach, making my way through brush, trees, and poison oak. That couldn’t be because my clothes weren’t the least bit muddy when I came home and that would have been a very slow way to travel. I must have flown and done so very fast. Actually, I couldn’t have swum that fast, either, even if I were Diana Nyad, rather than the poor swimmer that I am. So I must have flown from the ferry and over Lincoln Park.

After flying over the park, the route shows that I actually zig zagged through streets, on which I actually remembered walking.

I am very happy with the apparent improvement in my physical fitness but a little worried about my memory. On the bright side, I got something good out of breast cancer. Breast Cancer, you gave me the gift of flight!

Or maybe it was just solar flares or something, throwing off my GPS navigation.

Science and logic, you take the fun out of everything!

(Cancer, you’re back on my shit list.)

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I notice that I often unconsciously place my hand on the spot where my breast used to be. It’s sort of like a breast, at least more so than right after my mastectomy. As I’ve previously mentioned, there’s a calzone-shaped tissue expander in there right under my skin. I do it so often that I’ve begun to worry that I’ll be talking to one of my patients and suddenly find that I have put my hand under my bra without even realizing it.

I have to admit, it’s a pretty good hand warmer. Since I don’t go around topless, it’s well insulated by clothing. Plus, it’s located near the nuclear reactor part of my body, where the hot flashes seem to originate. And since the skin over the expander has no sensation, it is not unpleasant to touch it with an ice cube cold hand.

But mostly, I think my hand is just doing it’s version of, “What the Hell are you? Why are you shaped like a savory turnover? Why do you feel like a Tupperware lid?” Followed repeatedly by, “Oh my goodness, are you still there? What are doing here. Are you still shaped like a turnover? Yes, you are. Do you still feel like a Tupperware lid? Why yes, you do.”

It’s kind of like the relationship between my tongue and a crown that was put on one of my teeth about five years ago. When it was first placed, my tongue was on it constantly, like it was a foreign object that didn’t belong in my mouth. I still find that without realizing, that my tongue has a little habit of checking it out, probably at least once per day. And I think my friend, Lisa was right about my cat doing the same thing when he took a nip at my right breast some weeks back. It was his way of saying, “What the Hell is that?” My cat is about as smart as my tongue so I think this is a good hypothesis.

So now I think I’m going to do an Internet search for portraits of Napolean and see if he’s wearing a little pink ribbon in any of them.

No pink ribbon but based on the hand position, I surmise that Napolean battled sagginess in addition to Waterloo.

No pink ribbon but based on the hand position, I surmise that Napolean battled sagginess in addition to Waterloo.

I just lived an entire month without a surgery. When was the last month that this was true, you ask? The last surgery free month was May. Here’s a list for those of you keeping score at home.

June 27-Lumpectomy 1

July 18-Lumpectomy 2-Undiscovered Country

August 8th-Right-side Mastectomy

September 26th-Delay Procedure and tissue expander placement

October ?-Skin graft.

My next surgery? March 11th, for my TRAM reconstruction. Yay! I will make the best of my months off!

The City of Seattle has posted signs around my neighborhood that read, “Slow down. Drive like you live here.” Today, I realized that this is a philosophy that I am working toward in my life. Slow down. Act like I live here, on Earth, right now instead of living in some driven future world that hasn’t happened yet.

I know that working to live in the moment, to “stop and smell the roses”, etc, is not a new idea but today the sign spoke to me.

Now I am sitting in the covered outdoor section of Bird on a Wire coffee shop sipping my green tea with soy milk out of a huge ceramic mug instead of a paper to go cup. Today I ordered my tea “for here.” Because of that I am enjoying the sound of the rain falling on the metal roof of the patio. Bliss.

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Lindbergh High School Reunion '82, '83, '84, '85

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